How does it feel to be one of the beautiful people?

eleanorsboots @ 2008-06-22T00:03:00

2008-06-22T04:04:44Z

i'm 18 and i feel old!!!!

eleanorsboots @ 2006-12-15T21:41:00

2006-12-16T02:43:13Z

i'd say it's new now, but it's not
maybe the way everything's unfolded
you, a crisp newspaper
having tumbled open
and i the inquisitive fingers
slipping under each layer
to turn you over
sliding along under each precious
consonant
vowel
you are my
smile
you are the delicate spread of lips
you are the depreciation of skin
in small round impressions
the glistening of big brown eyes
you are the cadence
the flowery rythm cascading forth
full-bodied chuckle
you are mental jubiliation
you are heartache
you are destruction
you are beauty
you, the perpetual newspaper
your bold faced openess
i'd say goodbye
"goodbye"
what i mean to say is
"hello"

eleanorsboots @ 2006-05-16T19:35:00

2006-05-16T23:36:11Z

incoherent ramblings. i had a poem. i really liked it. but lj ate it.

so there you are.
and here i am.
the word there has the word here in it.
i wonder if you noticed that.
you don't seem to notice much.
which, i guess is good for me.
but i know i'm not myself around you.
because of course, i'm insanely self-conscious.
even though you're amazingly easy-going.
but i can't be that intolerable because you sought my company.
even after i wasn't myself.
have i ever been myself around you?
i can remember from last year.
i was testy and aloof.
but that was me then, really.
and i'm not like that anymore.
you've always been the same.
but it's only just now i'm appreciating it.
and i'm glad you're yourself, because that's what i like.
but what if that's what you like about me?
that's not me.
how can you like me?
a resolution, then.
i'll be more of me.
and you be the same of you.
i think that'll work nicely.
everyone has their off-days.
and i think it's been my off-weeks.
and i think i'll be more outgoing.
because i'm done with sitting in the shadows.
ashamed of everything.
done with being unremarkable and less than memorable.
i want to be a felt presence.
so, you're where i'll start.
you can feel my presence.
i'll feel yours.
that should be good.